So he still calls me. I dunno why. I think that there's a part of him that still wants to control me. He wants to control my emotions. It's so stupid that he's still trying so hard. He tries to make me jealous by telling me that he hangs out with all these girls, but I don't care. Then he asks me who I've been hanging out with and if I mention a ( Read more... )

Ben lied and couldn't change of course. Did I really think he could fix so many bad behaviors? I guess I just hoped that he was a better person than that. He's going down hill and fast. I'm worried about him, but I can't care any more. It takes too much ( Read more... )

Ok, so I think i'm finally over Ben. A couple of weeks ago it became really apparent again why I broke up with him. He can be such a jerk and a baby sometimes. Of course he got upset when I told him that I didn't think we should be hanging out as much as we were. I hung out with him one more time ater that and he was so pouty. It was annoying. We ( Read more... )

I broke up with Ben. I just had it with his whole not calling and not showing up to meet me on time bull shit. I talked to him about his drinking too. I guess we didn't really break up, but we are on a break. I'm gunna see if he is willing enough to change for me if he won't do it for himself. We still see each other just as much though. I love him ( Read more... )

So we went out to dinner at the Brickyard for my dad's birthday. I invited Ben but he just got off work and hadn't showered yet (concrete isn't the cleanest job). So we went without him. Good thing too because guess who Sean decided to bring to dinner... PETE! What the hell. It's like he's asking to get his ass beat or something. He knows Ben ( Read more... )

I finally got a day off where I didn't have ANY appointments or ANY plans so I can just sit around aaaaaaaallllllllllllllll day if I feel like it. It's nice. Although, I really should wash my car and clean up a little bit, but I don't care right now ( Read more... )

My car was sick so I had to take it into the shop. Turns out one of the pistons wasn't firing right as well as the spark plugs and wires needed to be replaced. All around it only cost me $216 which is way better than I expected. It runs awesome now. I missed my car ( Read more... )

So Ben's fishing and now I'm officially bored. Three days without seeing him! That hasn't happened for 8 months! I miss him so much ( Read more... )

I'm cooking pizza. YUMMY! Hm ( Read more... )

Bah! Being sick sucks so bad. And to think I just thought I had the flu. Who thought I'd end up with the flu, pneumonia, AND a really bad kidney infections. Not to mention a fever of 104.8 ( Read more... )