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Disappearing.
Lately I feel like I am an outcast, but not in the same respect as I normally do. It's hard to explain... I even feel distant from myself. I feel down, like I'm nowhere... but I'm doing more to progress my life now than I have in years. So why am I more outside and down than usual ( Read more... ) -
Amazed.
She actually answered me, and was true to her word. Perhaps there is hope for me after all...
Though the distance thing is still killing me. It'd be nice to meet someone like her here... Or someone at least remotely close by.
But she really is a genuine, beautiful, smart, honest woman. Amazing. -
Fate...
Sometimes I find myself in the strangest of places, meeting the best people. I sit and wonder, why... Why god damnit. Someone I will more than likely never see again, and. I have to sit and wonder. Why did I meet her tonight? I often feel like everything is meant to be, but just as much I wonder... Why... Why can I meet someone so similar to me, ( Read more... ) -
Hate.
I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I am not who I want to be. I hate myself. I need to be a better person. I hate myself. I hate who I have become. I need to be a better person. I need to be the person I once was. I swore I would never be this person. I need not be this person. I don't want to be this person. I hate myself ( Read more... ) -
Depression...
Awake stil... Depression makes most people sleep. I on the other hand, am awake... and I mean awake. I've been awake for two days... maybe more... I don't even know any more. I thought with all the alcohol and drugs I've taken to try and sleep I'd be out cold but instead my mind is just erased ( Read more... ) -
God.
I am a God. Do you know why this is? It isn't because I am the ruler of all... it is because my son is a God to me, and I to him... I am his everything, and he is everything to me. This will always be... My son is my savior, and I do not wish it any other way. This is the way it is, and will always be. I love my son. I LOVE MY SON AND ALWAYS WILL. ( Read more... ) -
My puppy...
Just when I thought things couldn't get worse ( Read more... ) -
Happiness...
I just want to have happiness again... I want to be in love ( Read more... )