My anxiety is through the roof once again. I think that letting yourself go slowly is so much more painful when is turns out that you're disappointed.

I'm touching your skin
If it's only a fantasy then why is it killing me?
And I guess this must be infatuation

I think I'm in love

And he has no idea.

So my anxiety kept me up all night. I can't stand it but at least I got to calm myself down. Now I just feel numb.

You came
You saw
You conquered me
When you did that to me,
I knew somehow this had to be

I held back saying so much tonight. Thank God I didn't text him...thank God.

He's got me stopping what I'm doing, wondering where I'm going, asking how I lost it, talking about love but he's here today and gone tomorrow.

It was the kind of sex that made you stop what you're doing completely at work, and daydream and then get embarrassed because you realize you're standing there holding a pot of coffee stiff as a board, just thinking about that sex that hit you hard in the head and stirred up things you didn't think existed anymore.

So I'm single and not happy about it. We came so far and lost everything. I gave all I could because oh my God did I love him. Probably more than I loved anyone. It was magic from the beginning. It was magic and beautiful. I never felt so whole being with another person. I never felt like someone else was literally a part of me. Like the "other ( Read more... )

I didn't go to my first two classes today. I've been doing really good and thought I'd take a day to myself. It was the first time I missed those classes all semester. I'm super tired from seeing Hair on Broadway. It was amazing. I cried like Paul said I would ( Read more... )