Having someone cheat on you will literally rip you apart...

I love Anthony soooo much. He's seriously one of the sweetest guys I've ever met. It's so easy to be around him. Like I don't have to try very hard, and he loves me anyway. I'm very lucky.

Hopefully a job is around the corner. It's been a long road.

So it's been a while. But I feel compelled to post an entry. I have a bad feeling. Again. They're always random. Anthony typed a rude comment to me on facebook and I hope that's all it was. Because I can deal with that. But I can't sleep and I hate it. Things have changed a lot for me recently. I feel like I'm starting to see the beauty in ( Read more... )

Dreams can be such a blessing and a horror. In dreams, some times we dig up things that we didn't know we stil had feelings about. This drives me crazy. Who's to say I still feel like that? But based on my dream and how I felt when I woke up, it's like I really do have that feeling still. It's very disconcerning ( Read more... )

This has been one hell of a semester. I can't believe it's almost over. It flew by. Summer seems like it just happened ( Read more... )

So things are definitely improving. I'm very happy. One day, I can be completely honest and tell you how I feel, but for right now, I can't. I will hold it in until I get over it so I can talk to you calmly ( Read more... )

I said I was going to do it, and I think it really is time. I need to write him a letter. Because I can't hold this in anymore. I deserve for him to hear me. He deserves to know what he did to me. It's been years and I feel permanently damaged, a feeling that isn't going away. I used to be so put together but now all I do is second guess everything ( Read more... )

So I think it's safe to say that I'm stressed out. I don't wanna deal with all that I have to at this point and it's bothering me. I have a wide range of emotions that I almost can't control at all. It gets really tiring trying to figure out why I think the way I do. I haven't slept in days and I don't know when I will. I'm just tired of everything

Life has been a little crazy recently but I've managed to stay in good spirits ( Read more... )

I gave back the ring.