I feel so weak. I spent the whole day in bed sleeping. I had cramps for 6 hours, and a fever. My voice is almost completely gone, with no sign of it getting better. I hate missing class too. :( Hopefully, everything starts to turn around because I can't take anymore bad luck.

Why do I doubt myself? I know the answer, but I doubted myself. And now there's nothing I can do. But I know I will never be truly happy. I've spent so many hours in the past 24, crying so hard, and I don't feel better. I never will.

Oh my God, I seriously fuckin' screwed up.

It's super late and I still can't sleep. I have work in 4 hours but I don't really care. I spent a good portion of the night going through some of my old entries and I actually cried while reading some of them. I've had so many good things happen to me in my lifetime. And I bitch A LOT. But I really am grateful because I will always have health, ( Read more... )

When will someone see me for my full potential? When will someone think I can do great things? I already know this but when someone else really see ME?

Julie
2:15
im gonna burn devin alive
haha its so sick but i would love it

Fire at Will o1
2:16
yea id pay to see that

Julie
2:16
we could sell hot dogs too

Fire at Will o1
2:16
nice

Julie
2:16
and veggie burgers.........

Fire at Will o1
2:16
lol

So I've been tested positive for Staph infection. Emily and Andy had it, and it now transferred to me. I've never seen anything like it. Your skin literally rebels against you. I've had blisters appear in a half hour. Last night, I popped one on my leg without even knowing I had it. That's when I knew I needed to get tested. But so I went to sleep ( Read more... )

I don't believe you...not anymore.

I just said good-bye to the last person I will ever allow myself to love.

Guess who was standing there in a Cracker Barrel uniform today when I walked into work? Guess who's training to be a server? Guess who moved back from Miami? Yeah......................