I'm not understanding what been going on in my life. Everything feels so unstable. I've barely been spending time with Mike. Wanting to get away from everything. I'm trying so hard not to take anything for granted in my life right now because I'm lucky to have everyone who is still talking to me, being the fucking stupid, screwed up, asshole that I ( Read more... )

When your lonely heart has learned it's lesson,
You'd be his if only he would call.
In the wee small hours of the morning,
that's the time you miss him most of all.

I need to go to bed!!!

I cried today and it felt good. I feel normal when I cry. Because it makes me feel like I'm becoming a better person. I rarely cry anymore due to my "reformation of drama" and when I do it makes me feel like I'm normal. Like I'm someone not dramatic who's crying. And the fact that I can hold back my feelings for a while and then let them go is ( Read more... )

FUCK YOU

I'm sad that Michael Jackson died. I really loved his music. I can't believe it. :(

So I've noticed that I haven't had a "real" update in a long time and I think it's overdue ( Read more... )

My legs are killing me. I worked so hard at work. I'm not excited about waking up and having to go right back to work.

I don't know what to do sometimes. Sometimes I think I'm nuts. Literally. It sucks.

Haha. I still get a little jealous sometimes. How immature is that?

I get a little tired of trying SO hard ALL the time.