Your father's filipino and your mother's filipino... how does that not make you full filipino. I swear I hate it when people can't just simply be proud of their f**king culture and race. Does being mestizo make you look cooler? Prettier? For goodness sakes I find it really irritating especially when she's related to me. Just because our great- ( Read more... )

After a good cry while taking a shower, I came out refreshed, calm, solemn. I know the problems are still there, but I'm ready to take it on. This will make me stronger. Initially I left this window open so I can let out all my problems, and that too helps, but today I think I needed a good cry. It's been a while since I left tears fall down my ( Read more... )

There's just too many topics, but I am super fatigued. 3 hour sleep last night because I couldn't sleep. I worry, all I do at night is worry. My life's full of ups and downs. The more I learn about someone the more I grow to like/hate them. I love learning about people's personalities in general. Too bad I can't talk to people. This is basically a ( Read more... )

 But you come very close. Thick-skinned and plastic, you have as many friends as you have to true ones. I admit my mistakes, but I lost more than you could ever understand in that selfish naive brain of yours. The idea of possibly running into you sickens me and that oldest sister of yours is as rude and disrespectful as you are. I should have ( Read more... )

I'm trying to be more optimistic. What's past has past so I'll try to solve my problems as quick and effectively as I can. Although I'm stressed as hell, I can't even buy a parking permit with my academic hold, but I'm just thinking about it one day at a time, this too shall pass.  

 It's also Christmas and I'm trying so hard to be happy and optimistic, but it's hard. I don't want anyone to know much I'm struggling internal. My dad lost is job, we're losing money, we're going to lost the house, I'm probably going to get kicked out of college because of my grades, everyone has so much expectations for me, they think I can be ( Read more... )

I woke up today thinking I had a final exam at 1:30. So I went to class, opened the door to find nobody in there so I started freaking out... I started panicking about how maybe the professor changed the classroom place or moved it to an earlier date and time. This is because I don't go to the lectures (only the discussions) so I figured this was ( Read more... )

I guess it was kind of a sweet dream that made me realize that sometimes a hug can mean so much more and be so much better than a kiss. (though I've never been kissed and I'm now 19) It was a little dream I had about a close guy friend, who I guess I had/ maybe still have a shallow crush on. I can't remember much about it now, but the part in the ( Read more... )

Amidst all this melancholy and depressing post I do most of the time... it's been a while since I've seen a solid A as a midterm grade (95%!!!!)... it's no final, but it's definitely better than a B, C, or D... =,D  

 I don't think I've ever fallen in love, not that I don't believe in it because I do, but with every passing moment I lose a bit of faith. No one has given me the chance to fall in love.