I hate how no matter how nice a person can be, greed and selfishness can somehow take over... what ever happened to giving? Doesn't that bring more happiness than money? I guess few people see it that way I do, or at least it seems like its that way... without money there wouldn't be any problems... without money there would also probably be more ( Read more... )

...means that my depression is worsening... as if it wasn't bad enough... I had a meeting with my academic counselor... and she was a really big help to me... the only thing that scares me is switching out of my major which all my friends and family take pride in... and if I change it to something they would appreciate... I just want to have a ( Read more... )

 This (among other things) is information I try to keep to myself... why? Because I'm ashamed of who I am. Everyday when I look at myself in the mirror (which I'd rather not....) I try to tell myself that I am worth something... that someone here will view as someone so amazing...or even just someone who sees me as a greater person then I view ( Read more... )

Why does it always happened when one overcomes an obstacles another, more difficult one must come into path. I know I hate or complain about a lot of things but confrontation of any sort (I think I've mentioned this before) is really something I could live without if it were possible... (well maybe unless it's a confrontation with Big Bang, or ( Read more... )

 I Afriad That The Loneliness will never go away....
They it keeps coming back to stay...
And how come I welcome it with open arms...
It's not the Loneliness I'm worried about...
It's the fact that I Feel so alone... 

 ....of sleep... I guess I can function on an hour of sleep... which is amazing because most of my life is dependent upon sleep, I like think more than that of the average person... but interesting thing... it was a Friday the final day before my spring break officially began, I just had to get through one more final which began at 8am (waking up ( Read more... )

I think it started around Junior High... when I first have bouts of depression, but I never realized how serious it was until I was a junior in high school. In junior high my problem was ( Read more... )

1.04.10 (The day I waited at the airport for 3 hours for my friend to pick me up...) Even though I try to put on a front that I don't hurt easily, that I'm always smiling (and when I smile I try my best to be genuine) I desperately pray that someone will notice this and help me... --maybe I should start helping myself, but I can't see myself as ( Read more... )

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It's been a while since I've posted... at least that's what it feels like anyway... I think it's because I've been focusing more of my attention to tumblr... my second blog... this to me is more like an open diary... and I can express myself more without hesitation of what people may think because no one knows who I am... I'm in need of some ( Read more... )