it shouldn't have to hurt so much, and it should be easy.

I didn't ask for it to be over, but then again, I didn't ask for it to begin. For that's the way it is with life, as some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance. But even the most beautiful days eventually have their sunsets.

it's the pictures i swear, those damn pictures that ( Read more... )

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i like to be intellectually engaged ... but i hate to teach ): don't really know what lies ahead for me and what i really want. big fat sigh ( Read more... )

secretly happy with being single when i hear about adults talking about pregnancy and breastfeeding (that's not the way to go to encourage marriage and kids) at least i won't have to fulfill those childbearing duties or don't see myself needing to do so ( Read more... )

break my heart for what breaks yours

okay made a resolution (somewhat) based on Mark 12:30-31
And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: You shall love your neighbour as yourself. There is no other commandment greater than these.

... but I still have so much hope in Christ. When I begin connecting all the dots, it ultimately shows me that I should stop steering my own life and just live life for Him! A simple ultimate goal if only we let God and let go.

I bought Screwtape letters recently. It is a really good book written by C.S. Lewis which I strongly recommend. Screwtape ( Read more... )

really loved the party on my birthday ( Read more... )

as you pronounced our fate last night, we were drinking and amidst the tears i held back and the too-sweet cider, i just accepted the sentence. there's just nothing much left to fight for anymore. and i told you as a sort-of comfort that we'll lose everyone eventually somehow, be it through death, distance or this kind of bittersweet goodbyes. as ( Read more... )

this is it: the way i feel about everything has changed since what happened, happened

exams this time round was beyond horrible
have never felt so defeated by a few pieces of papers, or swore as much as i did in 2 hours
or felt like walking out of the exam hall, or had nightmares about the paper even a week after,
or pushed myself to finish the paper only because i didn't want to retake two modules next sem,
or had two exams in a single ( Read more... )