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Pain & Suffering
Not sure what i did in this lifetime to deserve all the pain & suffering I've endured. This has been a cruel life, even with all the help in the world i could not get by. #failure
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Pleeeeeeeese
Doesn't always work. As I tell my daughter that, the meaning is deeper than she will understand at two years old.
Yesterday at the Oncologist office, we went over more legacy services, end of life preperation. I cannot accept this, I refuse. I am sorry if it happens and i wasn't prepared because i absolutely will not die, I refuse. I love my ( Read more... ) -
Stopped my meds
Last appointment with the Onc, my tumor markers were through the roof, so were my liver enzymes. One of the side effects of the shot I was due to get is liver failure. I declined. I walked out. The Onc wasn't willing to reduce the dosage like the package insert reads. I now am not being treated any longer by Western medicine. I cannot tell you how ( Read more... ) -
Appointment setting and a two year old
I dialed the number to the surgeon, as i hear a crash from the bathroom. My brain takes like 20 minutes to figure out what it is actually doing for any one task anymore. W T F.
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Progression
Did it ever really stop? New micro met on my abdomen, base of my skull and chest muscle. Digestion hasn't been great lately. Got the Lupron shot yesterday, fucking OUT of it today. Wish I had back up for Theoni, she could use a park day. Wish I had a maid or a gardner or fucking hope.
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REGRET
I regret every aspect of my life. Yay. -
My Life Saving Fund
I used to call this a health fund, but lets be real. Without this fund, i don't get to live. Help save my life PLEASE.
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$$$
Looking like we need to sell the house, but also looking like we cannot afford rent. So what, we live all five of us in a motorhome? 2 dogs a 10 cats. Oi Vey. -
Dinner Menu
Baked Salmon for the Omnivores
Butternut & Brocolli for the veggie eaters
Quinoa for everyone
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New Bump
Nice sized bump I discovered on the back of my neck. Fuck.
So tired and hungry, fruit is so fucking easy to eat. UHG, not in ketosis where i belong.
Now i get to cook not one, not two but three different dinners to appease all the differnet diet requirements in my family. OI VEY.