There isn't enough black coffee to push around the mud in my veins. And the lack of sleep shuffles dreams around a dusty keleidoscope where i focus my sight. I'm exhausted and frustrated. Don't sell me anything any more.

you said it was not inside my heart,
it was.
you said it should tear a kid apart,
it does

It's pretty impressive the way some guys stop talking to you as they start to figure out who you're sleeping with. Fuck them. It makes it hard to miss him, seeing as that's exactly what he's done to me. He made a brief return to my life (uninvited, without provocation on my behalf), and upon realizing that I had moved on in a big way (as in I'm ( Read more... )

I don't know what to say. Headaches and nightmares.

A lot of homework.

You lost your one in a million and I don't care.

While we waited for Andrew to show up ( Read more... )

Every single person here is a violin that is a tad bit flat. I can tune, I have a good ear and delicate hands. I am a healer who needs healing. Or an astronaut who suddenly contemplates plan B at lift off. Through the white noise of choking the world is a matter of seconds fading. Between gasps for air and thrashing arms in water the play of light ( Read more... )

I've been writing furiously but it isn't helping. No journal entry can aid my search for an explaination. I'm looking for an answer...to what?  To why I wrote down all these words? To why I'm consuming copious amounts of black coffee all day? To why I'm so distracted and unmotivated? Perhaps covertly embedded somewhere in this journal there is a ( Read more... )

I'm in a really reflective and thoughtful mood. For some reason all this came out, from nowhere.

I'm going to be good with money and stop caring about it.

I'm going to grow a garden and cover it with ash.

I'm going to reject all my nick names.

The devil's in me and I am in the details.

Behind every passion there is reason,

which I will install into my ( Read more... )

Are you ever tempted to tell your friend to get over it?
Do you ever find yourself realizing that it's more fulfilling to spend leisure time alone reading, wandering, or playing music?
Have you ever just wanted to tell America to pick up a book and begin?

I don't think people are reading enough. It drives me crazy.

I'm reading a book right now for ( Read more... )

JD Salinger is dead ( Read more... )