feel so empty. i hate this feeling. all i want is everything

I feel pure left on the shelf. I dunno why though. Partly my own fault i guess. Things happen. People want to do other things, have different interests and stuff. Oh well. I'll get over it. I wish things would be like how they used to ( Read more... )

Nobody uses this anymore. So I'm basically writing to myself. This isn't a bad thing. I'm tired of trying. I think i have issues. I need to be loved. I want someone to love me. But the ones that I find myself liking never seem to feel the same way. I'm sick of being single. I want a boy, a lover, a friend. One can only dream huh?....

i wish i could delete him from my life. i wish i could just rewind and erase it all. but i wont. and i dont want to. im going to have to because i font want to feel this way anymore. starting tomorrow. no NOW. im not going to contact him. and if he contacts me then, i dunno. i guess we'll just have to wait and see. feel kinda shit right now.

i want to drink myself to death with tea. ugh. cant be fucking getting into it all again but basically boys are shite. or maybe it's me thats shite and thats why their shite to me? whatever. i need to get a grip and stop acting like a freak ( Read more... )

im so confused. why do i need to feel the way i do about arsehole boys ( Read more... )

not feeling too great. not great at all. i just want to be swept away. im starting to get back into reading books. i like getting lost in a world that isn't mine. i can forget about everything else. forget how shite everyone is, how much im starting to really miss people again.

i hate the way he's making me feel. oh well. shit happens man.

as soon as anything good starts happening...it just fucks up. i would rather be told whats actually happening than left in the dark for a week. it's my own fault for letting down my guard so soon, but ignoring me wont make anything easier. i wish i could find my rose tinted glasses, but i guess that someone else might be wearing them. lucky.

overthinker. not cool :( ARGH!

going to start updating this more. i should start writing here cause i keep forgetting things. at least this way i'll remember! well, works going ok. i know that i moan about it, but it's actually quite fun!? haha. get a laugh with folk in there. and theres a wee sexy new start with jet black hair, wee plugs and hunners of tattoos on his arm. was ( Read more... )