i am unhappy.

I always think  really good things when i'm super high but always forget them afterwards! I wish i could record them somehow and listen to them later. Today when I was blow-drying my hair I was thinking about what's going on (what happens) with me and its usually indescribable, but I put it so well and it made so much sense. I worded it in my head ( Read more... )

Are seizure medications and suicide related? An analysis of many clinical studies indicates that people taking antiepileptic medications do have an increased risk of suicidal thinking and behavior. However, seizure medications are often medically essential, and for many people, the benefits outweigh the risks. The FDA recommends watching for any ( Read more... )

im so stressed and depressed ( Read more... )

god, i need to lose weight right now. ive got to start actually trying. ive got to try the vegan thing again. i would lose it in two seconds. starting tomorrow, im vegan again. i gotta hold out. til my birthday.

although the next month is more than likely going to be absolute chaos sprinkled with money problems, im actually getting pretty excited for the future, which is such an immense change from how i've been this past year. thanks to everything with justin, having darcy close by and trivia my sanity was salvaged, but other than those (though i must ( Read more... )

i am so, so very thankful that my sister is safe. and im thinking of those whose loved ones werent so lucky. we are blessed...she is sunshine. and thats cool as fuck she's getting home for my birthday just because i asked her to. its going to be sooooo hard not to slip up and tell my mom.

whats funny is...
you were feeling stable, where all i felt was chaos and uncertain. now new opportunities have lightened a new path that makes me feel stable, makes me excited, makes me happy, makes sense with all of my being, and now you are amidst chaos, and these changes have made you unsettled. thats what i was afraid of. i never find the ( Read more... )

...but i must admit that i havent taken my medicine yet today.
              ......coincidence?
hmmm.

update your random reflections, its only fair.

:)

i am feeling extremely unstable.
i havent felt like this in a minute..but its come back.
to be honest, i hadnt been keeping up with my medicine for a week or two..id remember here and there, but wasnt taking it everyday. i started back up right last week when my head started hurting.

"Check with your doctor if any of the following side effects ( Read more... )