you know, for the past week and a half i've done nothing but eat like crap...its driving me insane, and i cant figure out why i feel this way. i cant blame it on pms, because i dont know that it is. i just feel like im eating a ton. today i had a quesadilla, cereal, and a handful of m & ms, and its only 5. i can't eat dinner. it may not seem like ( Read more... )

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i dont know if its because everyone told me i looked so thin over the weekend when we went out to the bar and at the family reunion, but ever since then its all i think about...i think the pressure of being thin and of school is getting to me and im using food as an outlet... its only 1230 and ive had a bowl of quaker oats cereal at 9 and hummus ( Read more... )

ive already had 700 calories today and im the thinnest ive been in years. please dont eat, please dont eat, please dont eat. 700 is so much, it could even be 750, its hard to calculate. please dont eat. please dont eat. please dont eat. just do pushups and crunches instead. push up and crunches instead. i need a cigarette. a cigarette and a joint. ( Read more... )

sorry i havent written in a week!
im watching the roast of bob saget right now and its fucking hilarious. a part of me wishes i was on my couch in east lansing watching it with darcy and jeff, with a j.
so there was this one week that it seemed like i couldnt stop eating (check out the last entry...) but its totally stopped. i know exactly what it ( Read more... )

i have officially relapsed, after doing so well im eating like a 'normal person'. ive had a veggie sub and some fruit on angel food cake with fat free whipped cream today. its like a cant stop eating. im going to freak out. hell, i am freaking out already. jesus i hope i can get this to stop

so i awoke at 630 this morning with a URINARY TRACT INFECTION...god, i have never encountered anything like this - i rushed to meijer and bought cranberry juice and went to the clinic..im just supposed to drink nonstop and take antibiotics they gave me, but with all the cranberry juice i chugged on an empty stomach i thought i was going to PUKE ( Read more... )

i did terrible today. i dont even want to talk about it ( Read more... )

so yesterday my sister and mom took me and my brother out for dinner at the olive garden ( Read more... )

so i got super blown out and got a mad case of the munchies, at 1 am!!! i hate eating late. i had 2/3 a quesadilla this morning at 930, and made it all the way til 1 am without eating anything and smoking ruined it! i guess all i ate was 1/3 a quesadilla and a piece of garlic toast. i guess the day combined is around 800 calories, so it could b e ( Read more... )