I think I may have actually found a keeper. Total sweetheart, incredibly attractive (blue eyes - yum), matches my sarcasm, past the party stage, has a job, has a car, no kids.. Beautiful.

I enjoy him very much. I could completely see myself falling for this one.

God, I miss you. Going through all of the old things on this computer have brought everything back like it hasn't been this long. I just want to wrap my arms around you and never let go. Its been far too long.

I should have never let go when I had you. My ultimate regret is losing you.

$300 - $400 a week.. Cash.. Why the hell don't I live on my own? I'm definitely looking for a place this week.

I just want to kiss him right now.. A simple kiss.

I am not the person I used to be. But I'm not sure I've become who I want to be... yet.

It hit me. I'm alone. And it really hurts.

I want him so badly. In so many ways. Why did I have to let myself make things so complicated? It will never go back to how it was... Or become what I wanted. I feel like I must give up.. But giving up brings me more sadness than I already feel. Screw it. I've been here before.. Its not like I don't know how to deal.

He drove me insane today. In a wonderfully good way. I don't think anyone has ever been able to instill so much excitement in me through words. It gives me chills. Hot.

It seems to me that in a box of Valentine's hearts, there shouldn't be ones that say "Goodbye" and "See ya". I don't ever remember seeing those when I was a kid. Seems like someone at the candy factory dislikes this holiday as much as I do ( Read more... )

I was incorrect about V-day not sucking. All of the plans I had were shattered into pieces. Why couldn't I just stay home? Why couldn't I have kept my mouth shut and never said a word to anyone about it? I'm already sick of this year. Make it end.

Ryan was at the bar last night. That was a face I definitely didn't want to see. I didn't even recognize him for a while. Shows you how fucked up I was when all of that happened. He attempted to talk to me. Saying he was "Sorry for all the shit I got because of what happened that night." Excuse me? How about sorry for what fucking happened? I ended ( Read more... )