I think that was quite possibly the worst start to a day I've had in a long time. Waking up to that stupid song playing on my phone. Looking at the caller ID and seeing your name. Why would you even call me? Saying on my voicemail "I'm sorry we haven't talked, I've had some things going on." Are you really that drugged up? Do you not remember me ( Read more... )

I feel like I have gone backwards. Yet this time, I've reached a place I've never been. A place I've never been with you. Its strange. I feel so comfortable with you because of the past, but its all so new. Lucky for me, though, I already know how you are.. So I know when you're feeding me bullshit. ;) I think I like it.. Though I probably shouldn'

Stop being like this! Fuckin' a. So I said "Fuck off" when I was drunk, so what? You're going to sit there and pretend like I don't even exist? Take your pride down a few notches. Quit doing this shit. Its so damn frustrating.

Doing better today. Talked to Ricke all day through texts and a little on the phone. My face actually started to hurt from smiling so much. It had been way too long. I miss good friends.. And really need to stop losing touch. At least they show themselves when I need them most.. And I realize who my true friends really are.

I reached my breaking point. My mind is shutting down, and I can't make it stop. I don't know how to make it stop. Its scaring me.

I'm completely lost right now. I want you so bad.. But I've become stuck in a very bad situation. I wish I knew how to fix this and make myself happy.

His kiss is still so.. hot. Damnit.

I have sent myself into a hole. I am officially broke now. That $1200 I had saved.. Originally for a car and then was supposed to be Christmas money.. Is now almost completely gone. Yeah, fuck. That was probably one of the dumbest things I've done in a long time ( Read more... )

Holy shit. I leave for Florida day after tomorrow. I still have so much laundry, planning, and packing to do. Leave it to me to procrastinate until the very last minute.

I really need to talk to Michael before I leave. I don't want things left like this. Damn people not having a damn cell phone! Irritation always makes the work day so much fun.

He makes me smile.. I like him. A lot.