I slept in til 2….I was kinda pissed because I slept passed Will and Grace….haha I know that’s gay, but fuck you. Anyway, I woke to a voicemail from Kathleen asking me to a film showing in Oakland called Christmas on Mars, which we yet again got lost on the way to see haha. But it was a good time getting lost. We went to American Apparel and looked ( Read more... )

Today was amazing, Kathleen was in town from LA with her bf Joe and I haven’t seen her in 2 years. It was so amazing to see her again. It was a nice surprise to wake up to find out we were hanging out. We chilled here for a bit, I met Joe, and he was really awesome. It’s so refreshing to hang out with literary nerds like myself. I’m so jealous I ( Read more... )

Went to the doctor today they gave me Clonopin for my anxiety attacks I’ve been getting. I’m so glad to finally get some breathing space and help. I hate feeling held back due to the fact that I get panic attacks even if I ride the T or am in a crowded room. I left there and spent the day with my mom, we went to lunch and did some shopping, and ( Read more... )

First entry in years, I’ve decided to start writing journal entries again. Only this time around I’m not going to be so immature, depressed, and all that bullshit. I really can’t believe some of these posts. I just spent the last couple days reading up on this, and I forgot about so much of these events and situations. I really wish I handled some ( Read more... )

Finally it has caught up to me, my heart not only fucks me up hypotetically, but now the reality of my disease has set it. I have a doctor's appointment on the 28th and there's a very good chance they are going to tell me that I need open heart surgery. I don't know whether to scream, cry, or laugh at the irony ( Read more... )

Josh (My BF) and I talked...and things are complicated, but we have reconciliated, and I just really need to see him. I haven't seen him in a month and we rarely talk, but he's tyring to build more communication now since he in going through one of his depressive phases. I am feeling kinda lonely, I miss having someone to sleep with, to be kissed, ( Read more... )

I am shaking.....I just realized after my first day of school, going to lnc hwith Joshua, then oging out with Eric to southside where I bumped into Kellyn...then oging to Denny's...and then parking in the park by my house for a couple hours, that I did not have my key on me. I told Eric just to drive away after 10 mins.....then I spent 30mins ( Read more... )

So today was interesting...worked...came home....got all pertied up...met Josh at ENP then steph joined us, followed by Eric (Who I am still in trouble from goign to Ohio with him for the past few days without telling my mom), and then of course the usual crowd....Bridgett, Jenna, Natalie, Chelsea, and Angie.....and some boys...one who was vurry ( Read more... )

Kat and I met at ENP and talked for a few hours and got caught up on life and everything, and it was weird, Andy came in and sat with us.....it was kind of ironic and ceremonial showing that everything is goign t obe ok now. Like the group has been put back together.....like it will never be how it used to, but it's good to know everythings ok. Kat ( Read more... )

Kat and I are talking again, and we're meeting up tonight to talk....I dunno how I feel about this, I just hope it's for the better.