You give yourself to all of us ( Read more... )

Don’t cry to me ( Read more... )

OK I haven't been depressed nad angry in a while, unless I have a bad day at work and it puts me in a bad mood, but thats expected....but I just pissed myself off by thinking ( Read more... )

Ok some cosmic higher power is giving me these huge signs. Now I knew John didn't like me as much anymore because of the choices I have made in my life, and I am a "sell out", but on the 4th of July Caitlin told me that he "Hated me" which was strong words, it didn't hurt me because I figured I already lost him long ago, and though I would have ( Read more... )

Life is wonderful, work is wonderful, my friends are wonderful, and my bf is amazing. Aside from my stomach hurting, life is great. Tomarrow I pay for my 1st semester, and then everything should be cool. If I have money left over I will be getting internet access in my bedroom.

Today at work some big fat WHITE bitch comes in and calls for our manager and bitches her out on how we are all racists and how we didnt hire her Mulato son (that's mixed-raced). She goes off on her ranting and just is being ignorant and rude. Then my manager leaves when they are done with thier battle. Then she comes to the register to buy a pair ( Read more... )

So my summer is going along awesomely. I have a job now, despite it being a goodwill, I love my co-workers and the pay is very good. I love Nancy, Misty, and Luke is cool by association, being Paul's brother. I am now offically a student of CCAC with the most awesome classes in the world. I have a plan set up to leave after my first semester if I ( Read more... )

Fear of dying and thoughts of heart surgery repressed

Applied for a job at best buy

Spending the weekend at Josh's

Going to CCAC to apply for the fall semster next week

Made up with Brittany

Having an awesome seafood dinner

Finished reading my book

Everything is right in the world

I feel like I don't know who I am anymore, or whats going to happen with me. I have no job, I'm not currently in school, and I feel like I dont have any friends in pittsburgh. I mean...I know I lost a chunk of them because they turned into assholes, but I just wish I could sit down and talk to someone right now. I'm afraid about my heart surgery, ( Read more... )

So you know the saying..."Life sucks, then you die". That’s pretty much pretty honest...I feel great, well I'm an unemployed college fail out who is manic depressant and needs a surgery on his heart at age 19 and has the life expectancy of mid 40's. But all of these things are hardly a problem, I'm going to CCAC till I raise my GPA, and then ( Read more... )