I officially lost everything. ..
i don't know how much more i can take...

i've never felt more worthless and helpless in my life ( Read more... )

i can't bere any of this much longer. 
I feel as if i am a time bomb...
and i'm getting closer and closer to death...

its effecting everything.
My reality is all fucked up.
Everything feels distorted.
Sometimes I don't even feel like im really here.

I feel like a virus has taken over and is shutting down my system. 
I've lost control.

Where do I go from ( Read more... )

I  feel like nothing is as i thought. 
How i saw everything...

I'm always tired. always. 
I usually can't sleep but even when I do...
im so tired. 

I'm not sure whats up with me latley ( Read more... )

I now understand why it hurts me so much ( Read more... )

I don't even know what to think ( Read more... )

I don't even know where to begin?
I've been so different. But at the same time i'm not sure if its really different. 
Maybe its just how it feels.

I feel like i am disapearing. i feel like im being chipped at. and everyday i lose another layer of myself. 
its just getting worse.

im starting not to care for certain people.

Last night for no reason at ( Read more... )

hmmm so much has changed in a month ( Read more... )

So i got my period today.
I just wanted to write it down.

I smell so bad right now.. and I love it.
I love working out. It gives me such a good feeling.

I'm going to see if there is anyway I can go to Italy THIS summer.

today is 4 months <3 ( Read more... )