Dear You-Know-Who-You-Are,

I'm sorry. I'm so ANGRY. I thought I had forgiven you, but I realize now that it's only half acceptance that there were circumstances that I can't ever hope to understand because I'm not you, wasn't you, and half resignation to utter helplessness. I also know I won't be able to forget this for a really long time; I'd ( Read more... )

*Note: I started writing this around 6:30 am... passed out with most of it written around 11:00 am, whoops! It is now... almost 4:00 pm, so I spent another hour editing this post after waking up around 3:00 pm...*

I am perhaps late to this discussion, considering that it seems most people who've responded to this thread thus far have already tired ( Read more... )

So I couldn't help myself and fell asleep at 9:30 last night. Like, I didn't even bother sitting around and trying to stay awake; I just went to bed. It probably had something to do with the fact that I had been up since 7:00 am after about 4 or 5 hours of sleep the night before.

But here I am, awake at 3:30 am.

( Whee, more here. )

I am such an angry, angry person.

Oh well. At least the anger is selective enough.

It's the Thursday before classes start for the winter semester. I haven't done ANYTHING academically productive this three-week break thus far ( Read more... )

Will it push against the pressure and bloom into healthy motivation or overflow and become the ultimate contribution to an untimely, unatural demise?

I had a post.

It fell into a void.

It's probably for the best anyhow.

Strangely disappointed with life right now ( Read more... )

Sometimes, I think about what I've done with my life, what I'm doing with my life, and I think "wow, if I died right now, there wouldn't be anything to say about my life at all." I participate in things, but I don't initiate. Given a decision, or asked for my opinion, my answer is often "I dunno"--even when I think I know what the correct decision ( Read more... )

( FML )