so Bryan and I broke up thursday night after the swim dinner. all because he thought it "wasn't working out" al because earlier that day i didn't kiss him cause i was eating. It sucks and hurts a lot but oh well. Its better 5 days in instead of months later. that only will make it harder. But now I have this guy on my butt who won't leave me alone ( Read more... )

so today, i woke up at 10:30...good night sleep well needed. drove to suffolk and got my car.talked to anja on the way back...long drive but nice. so i got home..cleaned and went over anja's.saw bryan! when we went to Atlas...he made me an icecream cake! it was so cute! i have fallen for him so hard! Anja was saying how he's my highschool ( Read more... )

yesterday...after school, bryan brought me a rose and 11 stems...cause he didn't have enough for a dozen so he just got the stems....so cute. i almost cried cause no one has ever done anything like that for me. it was so sweet and cute. anyway...so we won our meet, went out to dinner at IHOP. stayed there til like 12:30. came home...waited for ( Read more... )

its 4:20 on Dec. 5 and emily sarah is BORED!!!! its so boring here. woke up at like 9ish, got ready and drove my mom to the grocery store. talked to anja for a bit then talked to ryan til he went to work which was at one. after that, my dad, mom, and i went to A & N and rudy and kelly to drop off the commercial. got some pretty GIRLY clothes! yay ( Read more... )

so last night was the first meet of the season against green run. it was a pretty clear victory. i swam the 200 free and got DQed cause of my earings. and it was by an old guy who was half way in the morge! if he fell in "accidently" it would be a helping favor. anyway..so rumor was i was gonna get scratched from the whole meet which is when i just ( Read more... )

well...being single has its ups and downs. today was a down...but yesterday was an up. i got to talk to the guy i like. i actually got brave and talked to him. building self esteem. now the problem is...can i actually hold a convo with him. time will only tell. i like him...oh yeah...i like him but does he like me...i don't think he really knows me ( Read more... )

well today was interesting. school was school no need to say more. went to practice...told coach i couldn't swim today because i have a court hearing....nothingh big or bad just something for my license. the real thing. well...one of the new girls forgot her stuff so since i wasn't staying i told her i would give her a ride so she could get her ( Read more... )

well i'm over anja's. chilling like a villin. doing notihng. getting ready to go to the movies with her, jessica, josh, matt, and peter. matt and anja are trying to kook me and peter up. i odn't think it will work but okay. anyway..went to wally world earlier with anja. saw ray-man there and eric. then saw jeff. then saw tan-man and gave him a hug ( Read more... )

so hung out with anja today. it was cool. went to the mall. walked around. went to PACSUN where i noticed who was working there...it was ben! from swim team last year! it was so good seeing him. i gave him a hug and just talked for a bit. i miss the old team so much. i wish it was like last year. the team this year...is so different. i miss ( Read more... )

so last night was lonely. My mom and dad were kissing and my sister and her boyfriend were kissing almost the WHOLE time. it sucked. for some of the night i went up stairs and watched TV cause they were playing this game that you play in teams. so being the odd number that i am i just went upstairs as they played. it pretty much sucked. it was ( Read more... )