What am I doing? I have this perfect relationship, with this perfect girl, it's supposed to be something that lasts forever...but last night we talked about going on a break....well she talked I didn't really say much ( Read more... )

It's time to make a decision that's long over due. It's over! I'm done! Decision made. And for once I need to stand strong where I have once been weak. No more will I let myself be taken advantage of.

I am better than that!So thank you for all the memories, I shall never forget but as of now, a memorie is all that we'll be ( Read more... )

Current Mood: restless ( Read more... )

as the tears fell all I could think was....

why?

why do I hurt so damn much....

So much to say but I'm not in the mood to type it all out lol. So muc has happened, is happening....I just wonder how it all ends lol. Guess we'll see.

REMINDER:

I need to update soon....

God I've got so much homework..AHHH Gonna go insane....Oh well shit happens, I just need someone to push me to do it lol. Otherwise I just wont, I allow myself to get wrapped up in other things and other people and...::Shrugs:: Ehh who knows. I wish I could take one person and run away for a lil while. That one special person would...make me smile ( Read more... )

Went to the hospital last night, u know it's kinda funny, before I left I tried to get a hold of the people that came to mind first. Just for some comfort I guess or...::sighs:: I dunno. I'm not even gonna finish this thought, essentially, got blood taken & a throat swab thingy lol Sucked....::shrugs:: but being there, as crazy/stupid as this might ( Read more... )

::Sighs:: RAWR, sometimes I think people should get one free get away trip every year, to where ever they want/need/desire to go....I need answers...I need to figure out what I want, most of all I need help. ::sighs:: ::half snickers bitterly:: hmm, funny, I always played psychologist...Now it seems I need one. Apparently I need to change, not like ( Read more... )

As tears stream down my face I type. I wonder...What've I done. ::shakes head:: It hurts ::Laughs half bitterly:: It hurts....Did I do the right thing....How will I know....I feel so broken. I just want to leave, walk away from this life and leave. I'm tired of being me. ::Sighs:: So lets see what happens.