I never really thought it would be this hard. Two assholes, somewhat out of my life. But I'm so sad and lonely now. I'm so used to having them around. They both used to make me laugh so much (well when they weren't being fucking idiots and pissing me off over stupid shit). And I shake my head at their stupidity and wonder when they are really ( Read more... )

Why I don't talk to people that are STILL on the "southside ( Read more... )

Danielle quit ur bitching. My LJ ain't all that interesting. It's always about the same old bullshit. Dumb ass men ( Read more... )

Paul finally moved all of his stuff out of the house. It's quiet. And it feels empty everywhere (not that it didn't before, but it's like it's FINAL). I'm not quite sure how I feel about all this. All of this mix of emotions in me that I don't think he will ever completely understand nor where it all came from. I don't even think I know where ( Read more... )

So what to do when you have a bf that acts like he doesn't want to be with you but tells you he wants to be with you. And when you tell him to just break up with you if he doesn't want to be with you, he won't break up with you (aka leave me the hell alone). And you want to break up with him because of his recent strange behaviour, but don't ( Read more... )

Life can be so tiring sometimes. What the fuck does life want from me? Just put me out of my damn misery. What's the point of being nice to only be stomped on. To be blamed. To be punished. I never loved my life but I always tired to live it to the best of my ability. I'm not perfect but I always tried to be good to the ppl around me and ( Read more... )

I've always been Ms. Independent, which I find is a real turn off to men because it made them feel less manless I guess or useless (don't you love the things I figure out?) but I can't stop really being this way. But I did realize that Nate made me feel like I needed him, like I needed a "man". No other man ever made me feel like that, ever. No ( Read more... )

I couldn't copy and paste it, but according to a cosmo quiz, I'm a killer catch. And I'm by myself again why? Shit.

The last post was nothing but jumble because Paul was looking. And not that I mind he knows what I say about him, at the time I didn't want him to know. May still don't. I have no clue. Fun times. So here it is. Paul moved in. Not the way everyone thinks. Everyone thinks we're sleeping together/shacking up and when they hear they we are not ( Read more... )

Some shit. Need to update. But do I care. Not tonite. But I love you anyways. Isn't that just sick. I'm just making stuff up you know. That's jsut how it is. HA! Damn drugs.