No seriously. How can a man proclaim to care about/love you and yet lays in the bed with you knowing you want to touch him. kiss him. love him. And cannot. He introduced me to someone as his "sugar momma" and I don't think I like that all. I should just be his woman plain and simple. But I seriously need to rethink my feelings and this ( Read more... )

It hurts so bad and I don't understand why. I called him like 16 or so times to leave messages to explain everything. Like the fact I was purposely trying to piss him off and why I did it. Because I was trying to push him away period. I feel for him, but he does not feel for me. How much it hurts to be just his friend when I want more. But I ( Read more... )

This quote got me wondering. And for some reason, I'm searching for the answer.

Alas, I wish I could say THIS to myself. Maybe I could have some balance. Some where. The pendulum of life continues to just swing swiftly from one side to the next...momentum never stopping. Dammit. Physics needs to kick in. Shit.

I've been doing the strangest thing. Every time someone says I look like i've lost some weight, I end up eating all day long.

I have been craving apples all day. QUICK someone check me for a fever. I think I'm sick. Make sure i haven't gone insane!

What? :-o! Talk about surprises. Paul told me that he's writing me back. I'm like WTF. Back for what? Why? In reply to my letter. Um. But it's not a letter. It's a poem. You don't reply to a damn poem. I can't wait to read this one. If he ever gets it done. I'm just wondering what he has to say. And why the hell did he have to tell me ( Read more... )

Ok. So I know what exactly one issue is. Now trying to fix is the problem, because I've never had to. An ex is an ex for a reason right? Still don't understand why I like P even in some cases love him. When he's all snuggy wuggy u know I adore him. I do. I miss that alot. I'm not going to lie. I miss the person I met more. We used to talk ( Read more... )

When you open yourself up to love, you open yourself up to hurt.

Smile...I want you to smile...I smile whenever I'm with you. yeah. Like I answered that. I'm still wondering why when he sees me, he has the biggest smile on his face. Maybe it's the food.