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Not really sure what to do at this current time...I keep waiting for the surprise and the happiness to jump out the walls and it has evaded me so far. Its only starting to sink in that it isnt going to happen and I will have to bite the bullet and leave ( Read more... )

life is so frustrating why cant anything just work out why does it all have to be so complicated ( Read more... )

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The wind blows me tales of a life once knew
The view of my kingdom from my bedroom sill
The arching sunrise of my time due
More feeling in a heart to fill

What happened to my world, peaceful dreams
A flower crushed my the mechanics of a modern life 
A selfish breed as it seems
To constrict like a serpant, the touch of a knife

A heart wanting, willing the ( Read more... )

I have been becoming fairly curious to whats going on benith the mask I wear...To be poetic i will say that whatever died behind it two and a half years ago is stirring again. I m not sure wether to ignor it or just take a quick peak...maybe even quicly take away the mask and let the world glimpse it for a second.
I felt happy for a brief period... ( Read more... )

ask myself why ( Read more... )

I want to be out of here...I am being such a mug and dont i just know it....I know whats happening I know what happened I know i m being lied to but yet i am still here ( Read more... )

The paint(ing)

colour on a page forming nothing
               canvas moulding endlessly
                          paint the tool forming
                                  the something a living breathing monster
                                       no you'll see before the end
                                          thing you wish to believe is gone
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you hurt me so much...you just dont get it do you...i m really starting to hate you...for once it would be nice if you were the one who came to me and showed me how much i mean to you...but no it always has to be me...I've been in tears all day because of you...you've screwed me up so much...why are you doing this...