this is my last entry in this journal. i've gotten a new journal because this one has too many memories and issues that i cant handle anymore.

my new journal is:

http://www.livejournal.com/users/heartsxspades/

add me. thanks <3

//nikki//

elliott smith committed suicide.. wow. this makes me sad. its so unrealistic, it hasn't truly hit me yet though ( Read more... )

birthday is coming soon. i'm excited.
november 2. but..

ATTENTION
my birthday party will be held saturday, november 1. anyone who reads this is invited. i'm still unsure of the location.. maybe the lodge in newport or up the street from me. maybe pizza hut. no clue! but comment or something asking me. because i'll eventually know. thankson a ( Read more... )

birthday list
digital camera
conor oberst calender 2004
insense
random thrifty t-shirts
$
new purse (you know how i am.. something i'd like)

:D

( a quiz i took )

yep. that's right. last night was homecoming. and i felt pretty damn emo the whole time.. even though it might not have looked like it by the way i was dancing the second half. will never came and every slow dance they played i thought to myself "yeah.. this is where will and i would be dancing together.." but amazingly enough, i wasn't the one who ( Read more... )

welp, tonight is the big event. homecoming. tell you the truth i'm more sad/pissed than excited. will, from louisville, was supposed to come up on a greyhound and stay the night twice (my grandparents okay'd it, they said it'd be fine), but yesterday was the day he was supposed to arrive.. and he didn't. i talked to him two weeks back, and he said ( Read more... )

oh. my. god. look at my user icon!! james made it for me. the other day at school he brought his digi cam and i saw him pointing it at me, so i hid my face. he goes "i'm just trying to take a picture of your eyes.." so i take my hand away.. and i dont smile or anything, i kinda just glared at the camera. but yay! he made me an icon and i'm excited ( Read more... )

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i'm getting a new livejournal in 1 week. this one is just too old and has way too many memories. i'm sorry. but until then i'll still be writing.

god. i feel so fucking alone. and i know yall told me and went on and on (32 comments worth) about how i'm not alone and i shouldn't feel the way i feel.. but i can't help it.

lately, everyone's been hooking up. and by everyone i mean everyone. and i feel so left out. actually, not left out, but more like there's something wrong with me. like ( Read more... )