Haven't posted in my journal in a long time, so I thought I would . There really isn't much different that is going on. It's just kinda a blah life. I got a job at Sephora so I get to work with people. I had surgery to remove extra endometrial tissue and my appendix. Other than that.. life is boring. My husband is still being a douche, but what is ( Read more... )

In a matter of a week.. my pants that were lose became tight. I want to crawl into a hole and die.

I haven't posted in my journal in a long time. So here goes ( Read more... )

I didn't eat breakfast this morning and I'm hunnnnngry. Normally, I always eat breakfast to keep my metabolism up (well, what's left of it). I have to take pain meds at night for my endometriosis. They make me horribly sick if I don't eat something with them. So I ate sugar free pudding. Two cups. That's 120 calories. So I'm just not having ( Read more... )

* Remember to be taking your multi-vitamins and calcium* They are so important. They help keep your hair from falling out and help it remain shinny. They keep your organs functioning. You need calcium for bones. I went years without calcium and now I have osteoporosis and I'm 25! Trust me on this!!!!!!!!!!!! Message me and I can tell you more ( Read more... )

Current BMI   18.6

Must work harder!!!!!

Has anyone read Stick Figure? It's hilarious!

Well, I'm not breaking my plateau (starvation mode) by eating more. That's just not happening. I can't do it. I tried for 3 days and now I feel like a huge ass whale. I'm going to restrict restrict restrict and up my workout. I've done it before I can do it again. I can do this. So far today I've had 250 calories. I'm planning on 100 more for ( Read more... )

I am so horribly fat. I hate it. It really sucks, because some people who are as tall as me and weigh what I do actually look good. Then I look at myself and I have just horrible legs. I'm kicking up my workout routine. I'm in the process of moving so my workout videos are all packed and so is my wii.. so I feel kinda lousy about that.  I went to ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do anymore. It seems like each day is worse than the last. It's not just my eating disorder it's everything about life. I don't understand why life has to be so hard? What did I ever do to deserve all this crap? I cannot lose weight for the life of me. I restrict, I excercise and the weight just stays there ( Read more... )

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