Hey there y'all missed you guys. I'm doing okay hope all of you are fine as well. within the next couple of days I'm going to be making the transition from "my life is an open book" to "friends only" and cleaning house, so whoever wants to stay on as a friend let me know. I know I havent been updating all that much but that will soon change, just ( Read more... )

*knocks on the computer screen* anybody out there??? well in case anyone cares i finally got a job and im still alive

"Haunted"

Tears cut off my breath
Make my heart race
Streaming, streaming a river on my face
Why didnt you love me?
What did I do wrong?
Cant step forward, cant move on
Petrified I sit as stone
Haunted by your ghost,
My dreams
My heart
My soul its host

So I am feeling alright today, Even though I didn't sleep well last night with night mares and all ya'll know the drill. What I wouldn't give for one complete restful night. *Sigh* well perhaps someday. I wrote a poem…yea another one. I have kind of gotten back into all that therapeutic writing jazz. So what's up with you guys?? Nobody talks to me ( Read more... )

This is a repost....but this song just keeps ringing so true ( Read more... )

My cat paws my shoulder her claw cuts and I crave the pain.
I close my eyes and the blood drips down.
I close my eyes sitting here waiting for you to break my heart.
Waiting for the pain to start.....again.
I am afraid; there are no sounds, of danger yet I feel the fear.
And I cant make it stop because there is nothing..nothing here.

What is up with life lately? I mean its like one thing after another with me. I barely eat anymore, I cant keep my thoughts straight and when I do I just want my mind to shut up. Hows that for an oxy moron? Got a call from the county today about my child support case...so I have to make a choice on all of that and soon. Then after I finally got ( Read more... )

Hey all...even those who are apparently blowing me off cuz they are pussy whipped and cant choose there own friends. yes i have been silent tooooo long and will no longer censor myself. Im speaking up and speaking like the loud damn New Yorker I am. you know who you are and im fed the fuck up. guess my friendship meant shit so fuck off then have a ( Read more... )

Well things are okay I guess how are all of you out there? Im up here at my moms and more then likely here is where im gonna stay. sighs* I wish I didnt feel like such a failure. Like the last five years was a waste my marriage was a waste. I cant stand it I cant fix it I feel so confused.

So Im rewriting this, for those of you who read it earlier bare with me cuz i recently took in a new spin on this.......three bruised ribs. Im no longer wistful over what may have or have not been no longer whining over failed dreams and broken promises ( Read more... )