It is on cold autumn nights like these that I am reminded of the quiet, dark hours I used to spend in my house, alone, wondering when my parents would come home.  I would leave the television on as background noise, and jump at every slight sound I heard outside.  I would often turn all the lights on to hide from the shadows, and stay far, far away ( Read more... )

I once knew a girl
Marvelous, as it were.
In every way
She changed my world
Sparked a flame once untouched
Years ago.
Only now
Undone.

Rybbo vuindr.

Could this really be the absolute end?  Where do the years go now?  The months, weeks, days. hours, minutes, seconds we shared, gone.  And although I'll always hold those memories close to me, I will always wish there was another way this could have ended ( Read more... )

This may be the first day in almost half a year that I have truly sat down and done some thinking, done something to really reflect. So here's the TL;DR of it: I'm depressed and managing. From June to mid-August, I was doing absolutely fantastic. I have (always had) self-discipline issues. Love is a double-edged sword. Father not talking to me ( Read more... )

So much has changed. This is a placeholder for a real entry. If I don't update in a few days, you're free to leave vitriolic comments reminding me to do so.

"You'll take advantage, 'til you think you're being used ( Read more... )

I bought cigarettes instead of getting you a present or calling. Nothing personal.

I want to preface the delicate material contained in this post with a note: I am perfectly safe and sane and value my life and the people in it very much.I've finally sought help for everything. I went to Counseling and Psychological Services (CAPS) once more, but this time filed my need for an appointment with a doctor as "urgent" ever since I ( Read more... )

First things first ( Read more... )

Why not write ( Read more... )