insomnia has got the best of me. i can't fucking even lie down to relax. i've been really highstrung lately due to the lack of sleep and crazy dark circles under my eyes. i wish that there was a way to just make up sleep at the end of the week. nights like this when i could crawl into bed and just make up all of it that i missed the week before ( Read more... )

Someone once asked the Buddha, 'Are you a God?". He replied "No, I'm awake!"

i can't believe i still miss you.
i miss your smile.
i miss your lips.
i miss your hug.
i miss your car.
i miss your hands.
i miss us.
i miss being able to say us.

fuck i need to let go.

1st party:i wish i knew how long we stood waiting for the police to leave that party last night. i was underage drinking at someones house when the cops came and search basically the area... searched 3 bands vans and came into the girls house. christin and i fucking ran. we sprawled our bodies in the grass of her next door neighbor's backyard while ( Read more... )

i think i am an insomniac ( Read more... )

ive been writing a lot lately. not that any of that shit i put in a notebook matters or even will in 10 years. christin and i are getting ready for san francisco. her mom thinks we are going to have orgies there. i was thinking today that maybe every person in my family is a homophobic idiot. well i think its true. sometimes im scared to just eat ( Read more... )

in almost three weeks christin and i are going to san francisco. i am very excited about this. i have been kept here in the beast house of the south to earn money for this trip and i have a feeling that its going to be well worth going temporarily insane for. we're going to fucking go crazy in that town and for once we'll both see eachother very ( Read more... )

gone...shes gone nuts ladies and gentlemen.

ive officially become a nutcase. im glad this year is over now the only thing i have to count down is moving out of the hell that everyone usually calls home.where should i go? give me ideas... ill be alone and proud.

what are the people of new york city honking their horns at tonight?

and also i don't like pass-on journal entries such as: quizzes and questionnaires.

cara