i'm using strickly my myspace now. cya!

even though i was going to an oral surgeon, i had to put down i suffered from depression. after talking to brian yesterday... i realized that deep down i am still depressed. doesn't how much soul searching i do or self actualizing... doesn't matter how self actualized i am... i am deep don in my heart i know i am depressed. i am tired of battle ( Read more... )

life has been... well i don't know how to describe it. i'm working like a dog but money is tight because i love to give at christmas. i still owe 333 some odd dollars but i should have it paid back by the end of next week. then i can start saving for a car and some more body art. i was thinking i might want a new computer, but david built me this ( Read more... )

i haven't updated for a while now... probably because most of you i don't or rarely talk to any more. more so than anything, i feel that i am sinkinginto oblivian once again.

i find a new lack of depth to my everyday life..
how bland, boring, and uninspired.

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i spent friday with inner city black children doing art projects and reading. i went into work with my mom; she's a first grade teacher. these kids are born crak babies or their father's are shot. probably there famil are parts of gangs and they seem to need is the love, affection, and time of someone who gives a shit about them. it brought light ( Read more... )

my world, my reality is shutting downa again... tyler is leaving today to go back to prison, my brother is in IRAQ, i owe $208.50 to the courts for under age drinking, david and i are not doing too hot, and his grandmother has breast cancer. david cruely reminded his family is not mine. it makes feel like even more of burden to them, especially bev ( Read more... )

so how about i wen tot he strip club with dave and tyler again. this time we brought jamie. i found out my dark beauty's name; it's maria. i actually got her digits! she asked me to call her sometime. for the rest of the time, didn't matter who was dancing for she was smiling at me. another stripper, leah, made a big deal about cute i was. i took ( Read more... )

Hedonism ( Read more... )