yay total yay i finally got my lower back tatooed last night and its a horse shoe with 2 roses intervined into it and its so pretty omg and it took forever honestly i didnt cry BUT when he did start to outline the roses omg i was like cindy talk to me get my mind off this shyt it hurt so bad but no tears no nothing and jeremy did it.......i have to ( Read more... )

okay lets talk about my christmas I GOT GUCCI I GOT GUCCI i got the wallet and the purse and i got the authenticy card!!!!!!  and that so made my day and nothing else really mattered i got more money and gift cards and a planner to organize myself which i need to do.........ashton still hasnt tried to contact me and so that tells me she just wants ( Read more... )

okay so now i am in souch carolina and it fucking rocks we were a little chilly but we were driving with the top down last night and we came home everyone laughed and got along i am having so much fun but i do miss my best friend cindy we talk everyday and i seriously mean probably half he day and as for ashton she hasnt tried to call me or even ( Read more... )

okay my fucking horse is sick again and now i am flat broke an d wtf am i suppose to do when i leave for south carolina in less than 12 fucking hours i am fucking retarded and i hate my life at this moment in time i am so stressed in tears nothing can go right this past fucking week so when i get up to s.c. am i going to have a horrible time being ( Read more... )

i hope you download this song and listen to it i hear it and i tear up but i havent stopped listening to it since last night

I had big plans for our future,
Said I'd give you the whole world somehow

I tried to make good on that promise,
Thought I'd be so much further by now
Never could build you a castle,
Even though you .re the queen of my heart

But I've had the best of intentions from the start
Now some people think I'm a loser,
Cause I seldom get things right

But you make ( Read more... )

okay so i have talked to ashton and we are not over (hopefully) and yeah i did kind of flip out on her today and i blew myself way out of porportion and it was kind of my fault so now she doesnt want to talk to me right now but i wouldnt eithe rif i was her i just dont k njow whats wrong with me lately why am i doubting her so much today first it ( Read more... )

is it fucking wrong that i have only 2 nights left here and for one of them i want to fucking see ashton but she says she fucking doesnt know when i am going to see her if she doesnt want to be with me f ucking tell me i am going to be gone for a week i mean we dont text we dont call each other i text her and i call her or she will call me and cant ( Read more... )

okay so let's takl about my day i went to ashton's house around midnite and we were happy no fighting YAYNESS and i am going to try my damnest to keep it that way but anywhoo we woke up around 12 so i fucked our day over cuz i was suppose to get up at 9 and come and take rayas blanket off but my lazy ass turned it off instead then i had to rush up ( Read more... )

okay were to begin so i did go over to ashton's last night and we decided it's better for her if we arent together no stress on her and so we cried hugged and said bye i sat in her driveway for about 3 minutes balling my eyes out talking to kyria and mandy then i drove a circle crying then i listened to advice and went back to her house still ( Read more... )