i have successfully been able to not stess myself out. altho i have a HUGE english poetry thing all to do. and like always... i'm procrastinating ( Read more... )

it was a clear black night, a clear white moon.

today i felt so bad. and i haven't had this feeling in a long time. i was able to piss off three people in about a half hour and i wanted to shoot myself for being such an idiot. and these are three people that aren't like "oh well, they'll get over it, i made a mistake." these are three people that ( Read more... )

use this day. this new day. use it to its EVER potential and i will be forever happy. even if its not with me...

blue velvet.

home alone again. what a day to be alone. i finished my part in my us history. and still have a presentation to do. while study at the same time for chemcom and math mostly. those are the two classes that i have a borderline ( Read more... )

when will i ever gain that full responsibility that is expected of me? or that i can always be trusted with my parents. especially my father? when will this ever happen. and its true. i do get it pretty bad and put pressure on myself if i compare it to other friends' families. the new motto should be 'at least i'm not out doing drugs and drinking ( Read more... )

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i had an "'eh', almost great" kind of school day today.
skipped my whole 5th period class to have a good talk with steven.
had a great lunch with liz' music and the sample of music she let me listen to. i was in a trance and couldn't get out of it until she pulled the headfones off of me. it was so peaceful to mute the lunchroom with beautiful music ( Read more... )

""but- i didn't become friends with those people because they DIDN'T smoke weed or drink. so why would i stop becoming friends with them just because they'd occasionally do it. even if they do it on a normal basis, but are still the same person- it really shouldn't have to change anything."
"and maybe doing what they want with their life, is being ( Read more... )

i found out that art really sooothes me. thank god for art. THANK GOD. that temporary satisfaction is always good. i wanted to float, i wanted to be weightless for those quick moments. and then art carried me away and gave me a feeling to relax and unwind. draw things i feel and focus on something way out of control... way out of my life. i wasent ( Read more... )

coached by the best, to be the best. i'm glad that didn't hit me until i was safely home.

am i getting better at it? or can you see my fake smile? my anger and jealousy all behind that smile. ha. try bottling up some of this. of course you wouldn't see, becasue we never meet eyes.

eyes... speaking of eyes. "her eyes are the most beautiful in the ( Read more... )

each time the wind blows... i hear your voice so... i call your name.

thanks for the love. stitch that is. thanks randi for staying and waiting for me to go and grab him. mahalo.

today i showed off my homemade michael jackson t-shirt to just about everybody. it was off the shizznette. i love this shirt. and felt bad ass wearing it today.

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