What's even the point anymore? I mean, I wake up, go to class, maybe do homework, mediocre at best, take a nap, don't sleep at night. Why even bother. If it wasn't for my sister I wouldn't still be here. Sometimes I hate the fact that she's the reason I stick around. But I would feel so bad leaving her now. She has too many memories of me. It ( Read more... )

I'm back after being gone for 16 long weeks. Nothing too exciting. No reason for me not to post, I just didn't. But no one reads this anyway. So tomorrow I'm starting on a crackers-and-water diet. For 10 weeks. That will take me up to Thanksgiving, roughly. My grandfather is paying me $500 to lose 50 pounds. But I have to do it by New Year's ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday to me.

18 years.

FRIENDS ONLY FROM NOW ON!! COMMENT TO BE ADDED!!

I don't understand how someone can just throw everything away. Relationship wise I mean. You invest time and trust and love, and that person becomes a part of yourself. So what do you do when they leave? What do you do when suddenly your best friend decides to dump you simply because... What do you do everytime you see her and start to cry? How do ( Read more... )

I was just reading through an old friend's lj. And after reading it I can't stop crying. I miss her and I think about her everyday. I cry about losing her a lot too. Call me sensitive, I don't care. I'm leaving it at that, because I don't want to sound too much like a wimp. But I'm hurting, and I can't make it go away.

Ugh, kill me.

End of story.

I stole some razors.

So I won't be cut free much longer.

SI Free: 7 days

Sober: 29 days

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