please just let me have a decent payoff for trying really hard to be a better person, life.

twunny-fo'. not really any different than 23 but i feel i definitely LOOK better. hahaha old.

new full-time focus:

looking REALLY FUCKING GOOD.

come onnnnnn abs and flat stomach. in a few more months you will be mine.

i also need to start up a ridiculous skincare regimen. shit's gotta hold up.

i am trying to remain positive but i cannot shake the feeling that sometimes nothing i do is ever good enough.

welp, i went and got a trainer ( Read more... )

all this getting shat upon better pay off in a few months.

just sayin'.

further ruminations about gaining some weight back:

could be muscle. which i am okay with.

i...gained weight?

okay no more skipping days.

157 fuck yeah!

okay if i am seriously managing to lose about 3 pounds in a week what the fuck am i doing right? shazam.

okay 160lbs. let's see how far i can get by the end of june. woooooo going to the gym every day all the tyme ( Read more... )