This is the most relaxed I've been in three weeks.

Blanket, cat on my lap, Hot Fuzz on tv.

I started medication tonight. Wish me luck.

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Hahahahhahaaaaa

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I don't know what you want from me.

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Right now, future plans are keeping me going.

Plans to visit NYC during Labor Day weekend, plans to maybe visit Paris next summer.

Giving me goals to look forward to, things I've always wanted to do, gives me something to focus on, because honestly. I've been going through this existentialist phase of "What is the point?" and not finding any ( Read more... )

Today is a weird day

Feeling weird. It could be that I sat down to read and read the most DEPRESSSSSSING dark!fics

I am okay with dark!fic if it has resolution. There was no resolution and no warnings, and I tend to allow myself to get dragged into the story, so abuse, both physical and emotional, and non-con and

I'm just gunna go find fluff ( Read more... )

Seriously.

How do "Adults" make friends?

It was easier when I was younger, because I was forced together with people at school, a lot of people, and interacted that way.

But like. As an adult. Where do I even go to meet people to be friends with, aside from work (which, I have no interest in finding friends there...)

I've always heard "join a club" ( Read more... )

PMDD passed again

Insert exhausted bitching about insecurities here. Regularly popping up and melting into panic attacks and randomly going away.

My ovaries are on fire. I don't normally complain about my period because It Happens and I know mine isn't that bad but holy crap this month is the worst I've had in ages. Muscle spasms setting my biceps ( Read more... )

Allow me to vomit up some personal reflections...

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Increasingly losing faith in society

Look. I'm not the brightest or the most self-aware or the most studious or informed. But when I can start realizing how the vast majority is fukkin hopeless...

Ug.

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Request for therapy appointment= made.

I think the best thing I can do for ANYthing is to put on my fucking big girl pants and start seeing a counsellor regularly again. Woke up today feeling insanely just-- like a terrible human being. And really vulnerable. So step one started.

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