Have you ever heard of the saying "watch what you wish for", well after this week that saying has meaning to me. I lost 6 pounds so far this week, but this week has been the worse week by far. I watched something really bad happen this weekend and I just can't help but think. I lost weight but the rest of my life has gone to shit. I have no ( Read more... )

140 this morning! Not good but getting better. Plus my period is this week so the bloat is starting. Today seems to be an ok day but I am not eating. I have a tomato and potatoe left if I need to eat. Those are small and filling and not fattening. Well potatoes are but its so small, like the size of an egg. So its not bad ( Read more... )

Food today ( Read more... )

The subject words are not words that I would normally use to describe myself, that was before. Now a days it seems like the first two words that come to mind. Followed my loneliness and maybe some frustration ( Read more... )

Well the diet pill idea just made me sick. For some reason I can not take those without eating even more or getting sick to my stomach. I threw up a few times this weekend, that seems to be the only thing that makes me feel better. I don't even pig out, I eat a normal size meal ( Read more... )

I dug out my Cylaris pills I got, I put them away because I hate taking those when I sit all day at work. But I am going to start taking them to see if I can change this situation. Plus workout and eat less. I need to try something!

Why can't I lose 25 pounds? You know why, because I am a lazy fat pig ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning all ready to get on here and complain about my night/dinner but then I jumped on the scale and it said 141 ( Read more... )

I did it, I stood up to temptation today and I won! At lunch as I was waiting for my fish to cook, I was getting so hungry and started looking through the freezer and cabinets. Thank god someone ate all the chips...whew! I did grab a mini pizza, then seen the calories of 400 and something and put it right back! I grabbed some cherry tomatoes and ( Read more... )

Yesterdays lunch was good, the bowl full of grilled green peppers and tomatoes. It kept me full for most the day until around 3pm, why why WHY did I go to the fridge. I ate two small pieces of cold pizza. I was so mad at myself, so mad that I told myself that was my dinner and that I wasnt going to eat the rest of the day and you know what, I DIDNT ( Read more... )