I don't know why but lately I can't stop thinking about my ex's Hannah, Lindsey, Alicia, and even Stephanie. I keep thinking about the way things ended with them, badly. I have never had a break up on any serious level that has ended well. I not sure why, but I wish I could talk to them. Though it seems that most of them have decided that they ( Read more... )

Well, I was just going to check my mail today but well something happened ( Read more... )

It started with Holly. She was the first friend I lost but I suppose I didn't really try terrible hard to repair the relationship but hell I dont think she would have care that much given what she said. But well lost two friends in one day and the rifts will continue until the hit the side of the wall and I wonder if I will be here still standing ( Read more... )

I was thinking today and I went through some of my old entries and I found out some interesting things. I said alot of things about some of the people in my life leaving and well it happened just like I said it would but... I am not as sad about something as I thought I would be. I mean I regret not staying in touch with some of the friend from my ( Read more... )

Yeah, today was just a shit day. I hung out with someone I didnt want to because the only reason she hangs out with me when she nees something. One of my close friends from my past randomly calls me out of the blue last night and askes me if I want to hang out. Oh, and then the next day she never calls me. I was supposes to hang out with my friend ( Read more... )

I went to city club last night and had an awesome time it was so cool. I danced and had a good time man it was just fun. I also got a little drunk and hey liquor tastes like shit but once it was in me and it stayed in me just so u know, I was so relaxed and man it was like u shit would happen whether it was good or bad I would just flow with. Well ( Read more... )

U know what I am sick of cops looking at me like a fucking trouble maker and like I'm fucking threat or getting in my personal bubble of space like there going to swing on me. I am sick of why do I always have to be the fucking threat and the dangerous one why cant they just leave me the fuck alone. Drop neck sons of bitch I swear the shit I put up ( Read more... )

You know I have been thinking about and its interesting the things you attach things in your life, memories and what not. Whether it is a person, place, thing, or perhaps just the memory itself. We can attach all sorts of things to it like smells, movies, a food, building, sounds. It is amazing the collect of information held in a single memory ( Read more... )

sometimes I think I wish I had never met any of my friends to be without any connections or things to lose. I dont think any of them realize what they do to me but I probably dont realize it either. I love them all of them I do, but sometime I just wish I hadnt made those connections wish I hadnt well yeah. this is about holly. I wish I never her ( Read more... )

Yeah, I know he never updates well here's an update. I had a whirlwind of a time these last couple of weeks between losing my job and well, some serious shit going down with my friends. Meeting this wonderful girl and surprise she dumped me but its ok cuz I realized that I not ready for a relationship. I will be once I am more independent from ( Read more... )