"Being able to survive it...doesn't mean that it was ever ok"

Another year. I said it was the worst yet. That might not be a lie. I recapped but it is far too painful to bare again. I know the words but I can't bring myself to speak them again. Not yet. I do not want to. You are sitting here. I will close my eyes and let this dream continue for as long as possible...although...how long can this go on? Guts ( Read more... )

It is not over yet. That could be because it hasn't started yet. Or maybe it has. I expect your word to be true. I expect you to know me. I expect every day. I need to be let down. I told you that you were a heartbreaker. I knew from the start. How does one steal a heart by just a glance? I didn't feel myself let go, at least not that night. It was ( Read more... )

It is only in pictures. That love. That love where you hold me. Embracing me with hands so strong and so sure of love. You hold me to you so tightly. The love you leave me with feeling that your permanent marker has drawn your name across my paper heart. The nights we laid on a secret beach and stared at the stars and the tide couldn't even touch ( Read more... )

When you wake up from the sunset, what comes next ( Read more... )

Well I am here in New York. It is beautiful here, the lake is crystal clear. The water is warm, I just wish that my back was well enough to swim, I tried an hour ago and that was just immediate pain. I will say this about the house: I could live here forever. I am happy to be away. At first I thought that it might be awkward to be the only single ( Read more... )

Lets try this. I am talking to BDunn right now on IM and yet I am the closest I have ever lived to him lol good times. I am stressed. Today I came up with that. It is a nice day and yet I can't go outside. I don't want to get my right arm more toasted. It has always been like this when I am stressed out I go and do something fun that should not be ( Read more... )

I have to make note. Reading about 17 weeks or so ago I found an entry of mine. The very last month of 2006 I decided to turn my life around. I printed it right here. I had seen, heard, felt and dealt. This GIRL I have to say has remembered her own name. I am still in transition, I feel I will be for awhile, but like so many have told me: it should ( Read more... )

I have to commend myself on my own insight. That is not something I have been able to do for some time, maybe never. Accurate. I am happy. I'll write more when the time comes. "…with no care. unlike me. whatever. life is changing now, it always does, but now it really is.” but now it really is...life

I'm pissed I guess, I came out of curiousity. well curiousity can kiss my ass. I was excited to see that you were using this as intended vent of emotion, so i read as eyes intended to do. i got to a certain point in the latest and i stopped. yah sure i read on but with no care. unlike me. whatever. life is changing now, it always does, but now it ( Read more... )