I feel like a fool.  My girlfriend went to the gynecologist and she was told that she has a bruised cervix.  I did not know what a bruised cervix was, but I'm smart enough to know what a cervix is and where it is located.  I just didn't know exactly how one goes about bruising it.  So, stupid me had to look it up, and come to find out that a ( Read more... )

Today is Thursday and I feel really bad emotionally.  Last night, or rather yesterday was extremely a horrible day.  It was just arguing with Lynell all day.  I think the tip off was her telling me that she wasn't going to send me snaps anymore.  I love her snaps and she knows this, as I've told her several times.  It was like again I was being ( Read more... )

Today I expected it to be a loving day between my girlfriend and myself.  I actually sent her an email card to wish her happy anniversary.  It started off okay, but then she started in on her 10 year old son about eating and leaving trash in their livingroom. I was on the FaceTime with her and watched it.

But, it went downhill from there and ( Read more... )

Yesterday, I was having a great day with my gf.  We aren't able to be together because of the Corona virus, but we were having fun just talking over the phone and having phone/video sex and all that good stuff.  We were laughing and everything.

Then I ask,"How she would feel about going shopping with me for a new bedroom set." I don't even know ( Read more... )

Today all I wanted to do was to be with my girlfriend.  To spend some time laughing and playing around.  I really miss being held, and holding her, but today is really feeling hard.  She isn't really giving me time today.  She said that she would call me back when she was done with a little something, and no calls back.  She said this a few times ( Read more... )

I wasn't even looking for a girlfriend.  I sincerely had given up and was happily just playing around and then she direct messaged me.  We laughed and have been talking for long periods of time.  I have just been hanging on the phone all day and watching her at work, yup, just like an idiot.

It's totally time to stop acting like an idiot and get ( Read more... )

Patience Is A Skill You Can Learn. Patience is the ability to tolerate waiting, frustration, or delay without getting agitated or upset. It's being able to control our emotions, proceed calmly when faced with an unpleasant situation, and live life at the speed at which it actually happens

I am working hard at developing this side of me more.  It's ( Read more... )

Gosh, I swear I work on myself so much regarding relationships.  I want nothing more than to have a woman in my life as my partner, to love on.  I am forever trying to learn how to be a really great partner.  However, I have no one to practice being in a relationship with, so I am like dying inside behind this.

If people only knew how hard I try to ( Read more... )

I don't know what to call this, I seem to be having a difficult time staying on topic.  It's been so long since I've written anything, or read consistently.  Depression is a bitch.

I don't like my breasts.  I've never liked having breasts.  I remember when they started to come in, people didn't know how traumatizing that was for me.  It is still ( Read more... )

Yesterday was hard, I managed to get up and cook this vegan egg scramble for myself and my girls before school.  My body feels tired now, its 5:23 in the a.m. I am feeling disheartened.  I am scared I won't succeed at this losing weight.  I am afraid that when I lose weight I will have tons of extra skin that will need to be removed and that I won' ( Read more... )