mann all i want is a relationship.. a healthy one. why is that so hard to find?

fuck ulcers and acid reflux disease. i think this was the first new years that i missed due to throwing up. at least i didnt make a complete fool out of myself.. nah jk. thanks tummy. i fucking love you. happy new year.

no mas.

whats wrong with me lately? i could't tell you. all i do is work, make a lot of money, that doesn't seem like a lot of money to me anymore, come home, go tanning every now and then, try to sleep at night, but don't end up doing so until 6 in the morning when i have to work the next day, and constanly think about how i want almost everything in my ( Read more... )

and if i could turn around and make some of the decisions i made all over again i would, but i would do everything so differently. i miss so many people right now. i need a wake up call or something to sweep me off my feet.

basically im speechless ( Read more... )

i got a new job today. i cant start for another 2 weeks because i have to quit abercrombie first but i will be working at the limited which pays better and will probably be more laid back. im going to miss everything about abercrombie minus the shitty hours/pay. if mercer gets his ass on it, i might be working at volvo as well. if that happens ill ( Read more... )

tonight- worked a 10 hour shift, was supposed to hang out with my twin but i dont know what happened with that? drove down to cambridge to see brown bunny with chris. i paid for it, but made him take the money so it looked like he was the one paying. haha how lame is that? i saw vincent gallos penis, and heard him have an orgasm, so i think my ( Read more... )

my mother has been right all these years. face it, im too good for nashua and the people who live in it. i know im going to be big one day and everyone that doubts it, well they will be proven wrong. on another note, its time to get into the mindset i was in all summer long, and especially when i was at my peak a few weeks ago. i have a lot going ( Read more... )

all i know is that no matter what i do, there is always some way he will make me miserable. there's nothing, no in between, no happiness, just complete heartache. the kid has got ahold of me and i just wish for once in my life he would let go, because it's getting to the point where i don't know what i want anymore. nothing satisfies me. it's all a ( Read more... )