it's just no fun, when your happiness is on the run.

dear emily,
please stop digging yourself into giant holes,
follow your fucking heart,
and do what is best for yourself.
love always,
emily

i've been going non-stop the past three weeks. i just want some down time. i want a day where there is no agenda - where i can just wake up when i feel like it, eat a bowl of cereal on my back porch and let the day take me where it pleases. i'm so tired.

i'm trying to figure out what i really want right now - or better yet, what i really need ( Read more... )

twenty-three days is too many.

this is a really awesome positive video. for once.

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i will wait for you
but please, come soon.

i think this string of terribleness is finally over for the time being. there is still a lot to sort out, a lot to be done this weekend, a lot to get off of my chest... but i feel better. and tonight.. after some lasagna, caesar salad and cheesecake, i'm sure i'll be feeling a million times better ( Read more... )

i won't hold my breath.

i don't know why i expected much of anything else... i invest way too much into people sometimes - trust especially. i'm confused about most things in my life right now ( Read more... )

i'm falling in love with this chilly weather. i just wish i could avoid the inevitable arctic of all that is chicago in the winter. right now is perfect though. so so perfect. i forgot how much love cardigans, and light jackets, and scarves and boots :) i hope it stays for another few weeks ( Read more... )