so papajin is delicious and all... but after eating out tonight, i've decided i need to start cooking here at home to save some cash. i'm back to broke again, and it's been a few weeks since i have grocery shopped. therefor, starting tomorrow (when i finally get some grocery money) i'm turning myself back into betty homemaker like i was during the ( Read more... )

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i'm here.
i'm now.
i'm ready.

i'm in between a rock and a hard place right now.
i'm not sure where my loyalties lie at this point,
and it's making me feel terrible inside.

horoscopes are real:

Your Horoscope for September 14 , 2008The planets may deliver a few gentle home truths today, with the emphasis on your finances. Perhaps you’ve cultivated a slightly single minded attitude to cash, which may need some adjusting. If you’ve slipped into the habit of accumulating in order to spend, then today you can break that ( Read more... )

did anyone else used to have one of these:

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dang, wish i knew where mine was.

so, it's no secret that i am a compulsive mix maker ( Read more... )

i gave my dad a 6 year old bag of pot i found cleaning the other day for his birthday.
this is the conversation my mom and i had after the fact via facebook:

Pam:
Dad loved your card! Is looking closely to see if there are any seeds in the baggy.
8:02pm
Emily:
hahah are you serious?
8:02pm
Pam:
Unfortunately, yes!
8:02pm
Emily:you can grow that ( Read more... )

if i could i would, rest our cheeks together
so i could hear every word that escapes your mouth -
and kisses could act as punctuation,
and i would pray and wait for periods and exclamation points.
tracing your outline in my sheets.
painting your face on my pillow.
faking going to sleep,
so i can fake waking up to you.

but my hands are tied by

do i have nothing good left to say? do i need whiskey to start fueling my complaints? people love to drink their troubles away. sometimes i feel that i'd be better off that way. cause maybe then I could sleep at night. i wouldn't lay awake until the morning light. this is something that i'll never control. my nerves will be the death of me ( Read more... )

i took a lot of really great photos for my 365 the past few days and somewhere in the process of moving my memory card to my card reader and on to my computer the images went magically missing and now i have nothing. not a thing ( Read more... )