It's Week 3 and I'm still feeling really slow and stuff. I'm a big, fat snail. *sigh* This week is pretty anticlimatic--just doctor appointments and lots of reading. My two least favorite things in the world. =P But I am doing a better job of staying on top of my shit and planning for the rest of the quarter... still gotta research my options for ( Read more... )

I have abandoned this for so long. I hate that. I hate that when you get older, you somehow get smaller because of all the things you need to do. They weigh on you, push and press and suffocate until you don't even remember to do the little things that used to bring you peace. That gave me release from ME. I guess I've just been spending (way ( Read more... )

If I could lie forever,
I would.
Lie with you
Lie to you
Lie to myself.
I'd save all the tears
and sail them
Out to sea
In a bottle
With a letter you would never

See.
Me.

I updated like, in February but then there was an error and it erased my entry. Oh well--it wasn't that interesting anyway. I think I was writing about turning legal. =) I had a great time--it was my best one yet. I guess I didn't realize how many people actually think of me. I feel pretty old, but definitely not in a bad way ( Read more... )

Guess what? A neighbor saw one of the fliers and brought Cheza back! Tim and I were both at the apartment when Ashley (his sister) called and told us the good news. We were both ecstatic--Tim's eyes lighted up like a frikkin' Christmas tree! I think that's why I'm in SUCH a good mood this week, in spite of having so many things to worry about ( Read more... )

Today was a shitty day. Our poor cheza is missing. We dunno how she got outta tim's house and it just really sucks. we drove around to look for her--but she was nowhere to be found. I have been posting bulletins on social networks and whatnot, tim's sister is putting up fliers, and his mom is putting an ad in the newspaper tomorrow. If you ( Read more... )

busy busy quarter. I'm up to my neck in obligations and reading and papering (supposedly). For once, I really don't have time. Before, I just dwindled my time away and then complained about it, but now--it's seriously gone. Time is obliterated, yet it's all I focus on. Scheduling, using my stupid planner, my erasable calendar, post-its, alarm ( Read more... )

I'm a mean, spiteful old lady trapped in the body of an almost-21-year-old. That is all.

A lot has happened since I last wrote. I've had a lot to think about and I still haven't fully accepted all of it. I'm afraid to realize what that will mean. Being trapped... in this box, filled with silence and everything I want to say, but don't know how to say... it's making me crazy. God, no matter how wise you start to think you are, you ( Read more... )

So it's Week Six already and I'm dying for it to be winter break! This quarter's speeding by, with all my classes and other committments. It's been real good though--I enjoy being busy. This week has been the most chill week for me. Post-midterms week is always much-needed. Jen and I caught up on our fun--and today, Tim came over and Chez, Jen ( Read more... )