an old quote ( Read more... )

money from LIRA showed up today.  whew.  bought bus pass, paid bills, had take out food....life is good....

i never drink at home....but tonight, i have wine, and "10 Things i Hate About You" and "Pitch Perfect" are both on tv.....and i'm quite happy!

...guess who didn't get paid AGAIN today?!  yes, that's right, this girl!  whee ( Read more... )

....off to the ottawa valley for dinner tonight, and then (apparently) to the cottage in cantley overnight.  i know folks want me to stay longer, but i think no....back tomorrow makes sense....back wednesday morning at the latest ( Read more... )

freaky how different i feel post-crash.....like, going out today and drinking but alcohol had no real effect.....and ordering food and it was good.....and being able to talk to diana and apologize to her honestly....

and underneath it all.....its just....different.  something is different.  wonder if it will stay that way?

...what happens when you live on stress and anxiety meds for 2 months?  you CRASH.

but after sleeping essentially non-stop for 2 days (out of bed only for meds) i feel human again.  phew. 

lesson learned yesterday -- feeling happy and good doesn't always combine well with drinking.  even with good people.

still, after waking on the couch at 5am, i stumbled into bed and.....stayed there.  all day.  reading, napping....vegging.  doing nothing.  and loving it. 

wow am i glad today feels better than yesterday ( Read more... )

Some day I'd like not to be crazy
Not to notice a book sitting out on a shelf and think "I didn't pull that out"
Not to assume because off that that there's someone in my apartment waiting to kill me tonight.
Whee.