...i finally made it out of bed...been awake oon and off since 3am....to the VAST relief of the dogs, wevve now gone for a walk and had breakfast....

now if only the low=level anxiety would go the fuck away....

Feria pastels lavender shimmer drying as we speak.....interested to see what it does on my already shimmery grey hair ( Read more... )

yesterday one of my best friends graduated from uni.  It's been SUCH a long battle for him -- anxiety and self-sabotage and so many semesters of unfinished course work due to fear and perfectionism.  So I was SO excited when he told me he was graduating....and even more so when he invited me ( Read more... )

interesting to hear from anette that she could feel it too.....that whatever it wuas that used to tie me to ottawa isn't there anymore, not the same way.  That suddenly the possibility of living elsewhere is....open ( Read more... )

...maybe some days we're just destined to fail.

Feeling like I can't do much right these days....and birthday coming up on Monday....and I can't imagine celebrating...hell, half the people I'd want to celebrate with won't come to the bar our are mad at me or....

Born to fail.

date night with ryan.....went to see the Nice Guys....way funnier than i expected....and nice to go out, to eat dinner (and talk) and then watch movie ( Read more... )

thinking about love ( Read more... )

i am one of the luckiest people -- there are so many incredible folks who tell me that i matter to them....i don't even mean my friends (who i wouldn't give up)....but acquaintances and others who give me uptake and importance in their lives....and i'm so fucking honoured ( Read more... )

i feel badly for not being more of a grownup.....but i'm really HURT by IPPD's decision not to keep me.  Or....really, its not the decision not to keep me, there are skills an EX-07 should have that i don't have (i just contract as one bc subject matter expert).....but it's the line "easier to learn privacy than to learn french".....as though my ( Read more... )

i had a shitty day ( Read more... )