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the bonus of white trash tastes
i wish i lived in the "i find cooking relaxing" world that so many of my friends inhabit....but i admit, i think part of that world is having the money for ingredients and the friends/social life to share the food with ( Read more... ) -
dear body -- fuck you
c'mon....the buzzing was done, the disconnection waning....and now its all diarrhea? really? i just want to NOT feel lousy....is that so much to ask?
now, it could just be lack of food.....so i just ate a sandwich....we'll see how/if that helps...
tired of being sick
tired of being poor
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Dear brain chemistry
Look I know....it's been a rough few weeks as we work on getting off effexxor.
And on top of that I'm unemployed. Broke until Wednesday. Feeling disconnected and estranged all over the place.
So yeah, I get it.
But this random tears running down my fave thing? No. Enough. I'm crawling into bed trying to feel better and you're dragging the ( Read more... ) -
sometimes....
Sometimes someone says something really small and it just fits into this empty place in your heart.
it was a shitty day....and it could've gotten worse. and instead, people were there. they may not even have known they were being there. but....i was loved. safe. not abandoned. -
Whispering
Some days, being a failure and a disappointment is harder than others.
Some days it just feels too hard
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frustrating
so i've been hurt and sad (and ok, sulky) about my job ending....and there was a lovely goodbye today....but there was also a slideshow about the new org chart, and they're hiring a zillion people....and so i wonder....why exactly am i not one of them? -
Terrified
Despite the fact that I technically don't work Mondays, I went in today to meet with new person and continue trying to finalize PSR.
Finally left @2:30 for soccer match, but once I got to tavern just totally wasn't feeling it....finished drink, went to groceries, then home.
I can't believe Friday is my last day. I can't believe I have nothing lined ( Read more... ) -
Hmm
It's funny to see different aspects of personality coming out as I come off the meds.....lots of anger and frustration yesterday, which is never easy for me.
Then up early this morning to take dogs to vet....check up but also checking in on Charlie longevity. Not fun
Heat went up to 35 today....was pleased that I walked dogs to vet, but opted to cab ( Read more... ) -
Not saying on Facebook but....
In my next life, I want to be one of the beautiful/desirable people
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things that probbably make me a bad person....
in my next life, i want to be one of the pretty people ( Read more... )