So here I am, Sunday night, I have done ALL my laundry so I am not a load behind like I usually am. I have prepared the ingredients for my lunch tomorrow, made my bed (properly!) done dishes and made a really yummy healthy dinner (roast zucchini with bruschetta and mozzarella on it). Like a real, legit grown-up as the title says. I think for a long ( Read more... )

Minor updates to the 101 goal list, most notably I've lost the 20 pounds I set out to :D As well, one month until I've kept up a regular physical activity routine for 6 months.

Overall doing well. Surprise 6 day early period was annoying this week....I always want to use silly euphamisms to describe menstruation...like shark week or under ( Read more... )

Holidays have been unhappy or stressful events for most of my life. The sister birthday, my birthday, then xmas in a little over a month combo is always the worst. For the past couple of years I think I've escaped the worst of my feelings about holidays because I had someone supporting me, listening to my complaints and reminding me that I can make ( Read more... )

excited about life. wtf brain. This is certainly the mindset I'd prefer but some days I feel like I have mini bi-polar.

Sewing class tonight! Picking out a pattern and materials, so soon I will be the proud creator of really shitty quality pants. 

1-why is there about a foot of extra fabric for the torso part of tights/pantyhose but rarely roomy bum/hips material? Women have hips. Pantyhose are (generally) for women. I would assume this frustration is just due to my size/shape but mutliple friends along the body tye spectrum have the same problem.

things I would like to say but cannot:

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that I could just delete everything about me on the internet easily and quickly. Just disappear off the internet. Fuck it. Fuck profiles. Fuck fake friendships. Fuck people seeing pictures of me. Fuck having to keep in contact with people. The modern day equivalent to running away for a while. I wish I *could* run away for a while. Just go ( Read more... )

 I have never cut my legs so much shaving or doing other stupid shit before this summer. I thought I nicked myself today near the ankle and 20 minutes later I look down and notice I'm fucking hemorrhaging. Blood everywhere. Glad I did a half-assed job washing the floors since there's probably my blood on it now ( Read more... )

 Urban Dictionary for "sure":

1. sure
the quickest way to answer a question when not paying attention that usually doesn't include any thinking what so ever. also used in a very sarcastic way.

Also, note to self: you are not so important that an entire day has been set aside specifically for your personal misery.

 So, got to the point where the dosage of crazy pills is upped. First day I felt a little manic, so much energy! Today was better, did things that I'd normally stress about much quicker. Finally gave some one I saw a few times the boot, which I had so much anxiety over that I'd been avoiding doing for some time ( Read more... )

 Trying out something daily for my anxiety, I realize I should have tracked how  I feel on a daily basis before I started but the previous few months of entries sums it up: shitty ( Read more... )