went topless at a regular beach! Not clothing optional! I'm pretty proud of myself. It helps that I got the worlds cutest bottoms. I hope to make going topless at normal beaches a more frequent thing. The beach was pretty empty....got some looks when people walked by me (and wifey) but that was it ( Read more... )

 Self-loathing is not a fucking character-builder. It doesn’t make you stronger. It doesn’t make you better. It’s just an ever-deepening, creepy-ass trap; a trap that is a huge moneymaker for corporations that do not have and never will have good intentions. You’re not disgusting. You’re not freakish. You’re not ugly. And you’re never going to be ( Read more... )

 Not finished yet, but getting there.

Personal Care/Health
1. Get a professional massage
2. Have a full day at a spa. Get the works, ridiculous skin treatments, facial, everything
3. Get a tattoo/scarification piece
4. Get another piercing (getting my septum re-pierced counts)
5. Complete the Couch to 5k program. Finally.
6. Get my wisdom teeth out
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All week I'm annoyed about how much socializing I'm doing, every single day thinking "aaargh I like my friends but I just want to go home, get into some track pants, take off my bra and watch DS9". Then, today, I do just that and I'm crazy bored by 8:30pm! No winning ( Read more... )

 The weekend has made me feel excellent, I got so much done (thanks mostly to my wifey extraordinaire!). I feel almost ready to face this week of work...it's the first one where I'll be doing appointments (both intakes and follow ups) alone. I am so fucking nervous. I know my coworkers are nearby and really helpful, but still...a bit scary to think ( Read more... )

 This past week or so I have felt so tired and overwhelmed....there is just so much to absorb at my new job and I feel like I'm getting it wrong. My mental health is in shambles at the moment, mostly due to the new work stress. My workplace has no formalized training for the position I have, you shadow other people, observe, ask questions, whatever ( Read more... )

 Eric got a job far, far away which is good, because it means we will be forced to be apart. Which is what I wanted, but it kindof sucks because I enjoy hanging out with him so much....Being unable to see each other will be beneficial, it will force me to make new friends/fuck buddies, to get into other hobbies, etc....Still, makes me feel a bit ( Read more... )

 I need someone to fix my computer since I have been treating it badly and have fucked something up. Slow, clunky daily reminder of how stupid I am when it comes to computers....My quick internet search indicates it will cost me roughly 50$ to have someone look at my computer to say "yep you fucked up your computer"....way more per hour of labour. ( Read more... )

I felt horrible today. Useless, unable to compete in the workplace, nothing special to bring to an employer, nothing even mediocre to bring to an employer...I feel like everyone else where I work is so normal or sane...and sometimes I feel like I'm too close mentally to where some of our clients are. Hence why going back to counselling is now on ( Read more... )

Here I go, working on this list! Woo ( Read more... )