I feel like I need to set some goals for myself. School has been my main goal for so long, now that I'm done I feel like I need to figure out what else I'm working towards. Sooo maybe I'll make one of those 101 goals in 1001 days things....This is a work in progress, I'll add more goals and organize the list at a later date. 1001 days from now is ( Read more... )

 Just got in from what is hopefully my last day at big bank job. Huzzuh! Often I can convince myself that I'm fairly normal, or at least don't have ADD...then I get into an environment where I'm expected to sit in a class room like environment for 8 hours. And it nearly kills me...I feel stress and anxiety by the end of the night just thinking ( Read more... )

 So, one week after moving. Enjoying the new apartment now that I have internet. Not enjoying the neighborhood as sometimes I feel like I'm going to be murdered. Not enjoying the new job, just need money. Feeling ok overall though....I get a real bed on Wednesday, which will make this place feel even more awesome. Then I can start looking for ( Read more... )

 Last night in this apartment. I'm going to miss this place, even if it wasn't perfect. Eric and I moved stuff down to the garage and then he moved the last of his stuff to his new apartment. Watching him leave felt so horrible. I don't even know how to explain it properly, I feel like such a failure. Like if I'd just tried harder things would have ( Read more... )

 I seem to have absolutely no coping skills when it comes to change in my life. I am having nearly daily freak outs about everything and can't make my mind up about where I want to live. I need to get it together asap. 

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 As an atheist I've never been able to really get behind the idea of "everything happens for a reason", but I certainly can adopt "there's something to be learned from everything" as a way of thinking of something. Maybe I could alter the first saying to "everything that happens can have a meaning attached to it". Either way, another day, another ( Read more... )

 Idiot.

That about sums it up. So glad for sleep, 8-9 hours of no thinking. 

  2 more resumes out tonight. Applying to the most ridiculous jobs as long as they don't specifically mention credentials or licenses I don't have. Probably won't hear back from any of them. Oh well, I have plenty of time to research how to fake my death and make a living in Cuba or something! Praying to every deity I can for the one job I really ( Read more... )

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